♥ no mood....
Sunday, August 22, 2004 -{'12:05:00 AM
actuallie a gal wid ebri thingyxXxx........flute....piano.....soft toys......frewnz....anithing i wan oso hab.....quite contented........juz becuz....get to knoe afew bad companies..........and all them backstab me......lose all my frewnz......feel so sad..........a someone.....who feel lyk dying.....but hab no courage.......cuz scared of pain......?dun wish to let my family feel sad.........?aiyaz...anithing.........ebri frewnz thing tt i'm some1 wid a bad temper.but i'm not......i'm juz sometimez...too stress up......i dunno how to sae sorrie to frewnz(if i hurt them....).....and i dunno how to sae good words to make them feel happy........or wadeva.....alwaez dunno y......they will get angry..........i dun alwaez 'diao' ppl.....& sometimes i 'diao' is onli play wid them.....but they dun understand.....wad should i do........?i'm juz a normal person.........who are lyk many ppl........oso hope to hab lotsa frewnz.....but i dunno how to let them knoe...........sometimes i dun tok........not cuz i angry.......but they thought i'm angry........and......most of them get awae frm me.......not onli they will hab 'fan nao'......i'm oso a human........i will oso hab.....they thought i'm the luckiest person.......cuz i hab all thingyxXxx tt i wan....but lucky not happy oso no use.......actualli i'm the same as them......juz hope to lead a simple life.....dun hope to disappoint them.....try to work as hard as i could.....to get good results......wans nth.....but get back old frewnz....espacially those who are once my best frewnz.......alyssa.....yan ming.....gladys......cindy........though u all get awae frm me....cuz u all think i hab bad tamper....or maybe i hab at times.......but i'm trying to change le........nvm if u dun wan to befren wid me animore.....cuz maybe after dis year.....or maybe earlier......i will not c u all animore.....tt's all of me.....4 todae......hope to knoe better of myself....
